SIMPLYme.

2007-08-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

this is the 147th post.
thank you everyone for always checking back on my life.
this blog has come a long way.
and for everyone who played a part in my life,
thank you for helping me this far.

this blog will be officially closed on 28.08.2007

no matter what,
life will always go on.
so will the memories! (:

2007-08-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

/edited

to DRINA&STIIE .
thank you girls, for the post.
for the listening ears! (:
and and and, the photo!

to STIIE .
thank you for helping to solve me last maths qn.
hahaha. call you so randomly.
to ask about plans and stuffs.
plan into action really soon kay?
and hope we'll be studying together tmr.

to SAMMIE .
you really need to get back soon.
hope HOI isnt driving you crazy.
must jiayouus okay? (:
while we get promoted.
you better graduate from college!

to IJ020 Proj Work Mates .
if you ever read.
haha. thank you for the hard work.
and, keep up w/ the good work.
we're back on track.
let's put in our best! (:

to MOM .
please drink more water.
do less housework.
i'll help you w/ it tmr.
and, be happier!

to YH .
thank you for the lessons learnt.
hope life gets better for you. (:
and lastly, BE HAPPY!

2007-08-18T21:22:00.000+08:00

saturday's gone!
vector revision.
differentiaition tutorial.
now on to circular motion.
hope everything will be completed.
haha. HOPEFULLY..

tried out my prep piece. (:
good progress i hope. haha.
let the fingers run alil more.

actually, i'm intending to move somewhere else.
wordpress perhaps.
more details next time.

nothing much today.
just that mom's really in bad shape.
hope she gets well soon.

next week is gonna be.
haha. let me take a deep breath first.
MATHS TEST
GEOG TEST
PHYSICS SPA
CHEM SPA
PHYSICS TEST
BUTTERFLY PROJ
but i know i'll make it thru.
all the way! (:

to end off,
some random le phantom de opera songs.
hahaha. i want to do that musical again.

let your mind start a journey to a strange new world.
leave all thoughts of the world you knew before.
let your soul take you where you long to be.

wishing you were somehow heare again.
wishing you would were somehow near.
sometimes it seemed if i just dreamed,
somehow you would be here.
wishing i could hear your voice again.
knowing that i never would.
dreaming of you won't help me to do,
all that you dreamed i could.

2007-08-18T00:55:00.000+08:00

LADY MADONNA.
derrick says i'm starting to sound like a diva.
which like so untrue.
i was like, so nervous.
super nervous. hahaha.
cos i scared my high notes will crack!
fainTs. hahaha.
luckily it dint turn out so bad.

ohyes, THIS MORNING.
adlin had a good laugh.
lols, cos i reminded her a thousand times.
not to be late.
BUT I WAS. lols. =X
just for today only okay. hahaha.
cabbed to schoool. super ex.
went kangaroo jump! (: martial arts.
wheeee-

and guess what, PE became a free period.
not becos the teacher was not there.
but cos it was raining, the lightning beacons were on.
the hall was not allowed for use.
so there we are, (: haha.
but i want to do ACES!!

then GP compre paper.
it is a total scare of the day.
seriously, there's lot of work to be done.
if i want to pass my physics,
i better read more chim books.
and understand and ANALYSE.

FOR CHOIR PRATICE. hahahaha.
did lady madonna.
which sounded quite nice. =X
sixteen tons. (:
how deep is your love.
its hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
derrick like made the announcement so openly.
haha. i'm surprised though. (:
i like the cohesiveness now.
but everyone really have to be more conscious abt posture.
i think we're improving.
everyone start listening,
everyone start improving.
so LISTEN. (:

i'll soon embark on a journey.
not anywhere far.
but i'll take me a long way. (:
to begin w/ the end in mind.
a few more days to relax before i start.
so meanwhile, card-making session.
hahah. (:

yupps. so that's all.
today feels good.
cos its the end of the WEAKdays.
then to the weekends.

make good use of the time left, jill.
play hard, pray hard. (:

2007-08-17T01:05:00.001+08:00

it hurts so ~~great~~ good.
cos i have someone impt.
you dont know how hurting it is.

protection
you don't feel the need to anymore.

i finally know how she felt that time.
when i came into the picture, things changed.
when someone new comes, vicissitude.
now, being forced to step into her shoes,
i know how it feels exactly.

apparently,
please dont throw me a life buoy.
i may not be able to catch.
if you're here as a lifeguard,
forget about rescuing.

they purchased your attention.
i gave away mine.

2007-08-16T21:08:00.000+08:00

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
Hoping they will never change
Cause what we had can't be replaced
Don't let our memories fade away
Keep me in your heart for always
You made me believe that I could do almost anything
You stood right by me through the tears, through everything

I'll remember you
And baby that's forever true
You're the one that I'll always miss
Never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you no matter what you're going through
In my heart you'll always be
Forever baby I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared
The tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go separate ways
You made me believe that I could do almost anything
You stood right by me through the tears, through everything

I'll remember you
And baby that's forever true
You're the one that I'll always miss
Never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you no matter what you're going through
In my heart you'll always be
Forever baby I'll remember you

If the day should come when you need someone
You know that I'll follow
I will be there
Don't ever let there be a doubt in your mind
Cause I'll remember you,

I'll remember you
And baby that's forever true
You're the one that I'll always miss
Never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you no matter what you're going through
In my heart you'll always be
Forever baby I'll remember you
Forever baby, I'll remember you

started w/ a song i've been listening very often recently.
its gonna be the end of another week.
mid-course coming in a month.
today's chem spa was horrible.
i dint even finish HALF. like wth. -.-
then i forgot my bathing stuffs.
had a bad stomachache.
thunders roaring, lightning flashing.
a total disastrous morning.
and, i was almost stucked in the bus that would go to TAMPINES.
seriously,
i think i'm drowning in the crowds.
ohwells-

~~dearr and/or~~ sister

2007-08-15T00:14:00.000+08:00

today was kind of exhausting.
one of those days which i had to drag myself till the end of the day.
perhaps i've been turning in late.
but, i guess, its worth the while.

PW PW PW.
this week i'm gonna concentrate on pw.
rush some things out.
study during weekends.
several tests next week.
esp on Monday, 20.08.07
maths test/geog test.
~~and you.~~

i dont know whether you've noticed.
haha. i took it away!
no one should have noticed!
yupp. sometimes, somethings,
are better kept inside!

CCA Photo taking tmr.
shall take some photos also.
so that sammie can see how my choir looks like.
haha. she misses my singing i guess.
i hope. haha.

just hearing you sing fills my heart with happiness. though many things are left unsaid, the silence will elicit short snippets of precious memories. i will put those thoughts behind me and deposit the misses in the memory bank.

kangaroo jump VS physics remedial.
which to choose?

we're anti-phase.

2007-08-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

MONDAY BLUES.
i'm was wearing my blue hairband.
that dorry & frens got for me.
then FUDGE came.
and she wore the same hairband.
just that it was pink.
so i decided to take a photo w/ her.

this was taken at about 7.45a.m
after kangaroo jump. (:
so its, JILL and FUDGE.

lessons, lectures, tutorials.
had p.e.
one of the least tiring p.e today.
glad i finished the interval runs.
quite happy that i did. haha. (:
the guys had to run at teletubby hill.
poor little boys. haha.

anyway, there's this marvellous exhibit @ junction8.
some pictures.

Esplande made of Jacob Biscuits! (:

India's Taj Mahal.
KL's Twin Towers.
this is a 'i-want-to-visit-place'.

beautiful structures.
how i wish i was seeing the real thing.
haha. wishes do come true. sometimes.

and i really want that HSM2 Soundtrack.
gonna get it as soon as its out.
ahhhhhhhhhh.
anyone want to sponsor? haha.
early christmas gift!

yupp. last night was.
a total ________. (fill in the blanks)
but i benefited from it. (:
rivers of tears.
but, worth the flow.

you're the music in me.

2007-08-12T21:21:00.000+08:00

sammie, some correction to do.
just now,
you asked me for the definition of vicissitude in your HOI essay.
now's the perfect time to explain.
the word 'vicissitude' describe the whole situation now.
yupp.
(sammie, have fun getting the right definition.)

what a day.

no work done. (as expected)

so much thoughts. (as expected)

so what's unexpected today?

dinner was utterly ~~horrible~~ uncomfortable.
please ppl, next time,
when you invite me to dinner.
please tell me the purpose.
of course, there's some exceptions.
like yh, joyce or my girls dont need purposes to invite me for dinner.

so much for the secret.
where's our promise?
promises, made to be broken.

some special notes.
girly, hope you feel better.
we should meet really soon.
so much for being loved & loving others.

fcube.
four chopsticks don't break easily.
even if we're far apart.
brace on, everyone.
we'll make it to the finishing line.
all of us have our own problems.
we'll encourage one another.
we can make it through!
JIAYOUUS.

you know the words once upon a time.
but not anymore.

2007-08-12T02:20:00.000+08:00

my mood's ruined.
all i want to do is to screamm.

and i also feel like running away.

2007-08-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

CLAP! Singapore in the Heartlands.
@ AMK Central.
Every 2nd Sunday Of the Month.
7.30-9p.m
Innova Junior College Choir

CLAP! (:
some red clappers they gave out.
hahaha. got this from yiling.
leona said there werent any left.
haha. a combination of yh and mt. haha.

How deep is your love.
by the BeeGees.
lovely song.
"cos we're living in a world of fools.
breaking us down.
when they all should let us be.
we belong to you and me."
all time Vox Astra favourite.
YELLOW SUBMARINE. (:
hahaha. blup blup blup!

this is what i got from xTra NTUC.
original/rose/lavendar.

yupp. as for the performance,
parents and hazel dint make it to watch today.
they couldnt get to the venue.
anyway, it all ended really quickly.
and i tot we sounded great. haha.
no shivering like what tracie's dad said.
and tracie's going away to UK.
for studies. ohwells.
everyone's going away.
at august end, nobody left!

lots of stuffs to complete.
and i promise myself, i am not sleeping.
not until i complete my physics tutorial.
hopefully my eyes are still open by then.
productivity is really at an extreme low.

last night had a long chat w/ yh.
felt great.
she was singing, humming songs.
even w/o saying much.
i feel happy just listening to her,
basking in the magical world of music. (:

questions asked.
questions answered.
questions still put me in awe.

You're the music in me - HSM2
You know the words Once Upon A Time
Make you listen. There's a reason.

When you dream there's a chance you'll find
A little laughter or a happy ever after

Your harmony to the melody
It's echoing inside my head

A single voice Above the noise

And like a common thread
Hmm, you're pulling me

When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
Oh, you are the music in me

Yeah it's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
Because you are the music in me

Na na na na
Na na na na na
Yeah yeah yeah
You are the music in me

It's like I knew you before we met
Can't explain it
There's no name for it

I'm saying words I never said
And it was easy
Because you see the real me
As I am You understand
And that's more than I've ever known

To hear your voice
Above the noise

And no, I'm not alone
Oh you're singing to me

When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
You are the music in me

It's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
You are the music in me

Together we're gonna sing
We got the power to sing what we feel
Connected and real

Can't keep it all inside

Na na na na
Na na na na na
Yeah yeah yeah
You are the music in me

When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
You are the music in me

Yeah it's living in all of us
It's brought us here because
You are the music in me

when you dream,
there's a little chance you'll find.
a little laughter,
or a happy ever after.

2007-08-10T23:02:00.000+08:00

PICTURE UPDATES FOR SAM.
PHS Carnival, 080707.

GOH and Supporting Contigents.
this photo was taken at about 4.30p.m
it was a full school day for the WHOLE school.
yeah. they had to stay till 9p.m

P.O.P (Passing Out Parade)
i'm sure you would miss this. (:
it was wonderful looking at them,
esp when they threw their caps into the air.

yupp. that's about it.
dint really take photos back at phs.
it felt just like home.
i'm sure sam misses phs so much.

TODAY.
woke up due to a horrid dream.
screamed like crazy.
thought it was all real.
cried under the covers.
yeah.
went to tracie's place in the afternoon.
all the travelling time were counted w/o waiting time.
so accurate today.
haha. really marvellous.

this was where my dinner was.
dad's fish and chips.
my salmon wellington.
mum's egg mayo on potato.
our single scoop of chocolate gelato w/ almond flakes.

that's me and hazel. yupps.

i'm gonna get a mike this weekend.

so i can talk to sammie. (:

anyway, its the official weekends.

more tutorials and assignments to complete.

and PW Pilot Test.

i hope my group members have been working on it.

-fingers crossed-

And when you rise in the morning sun.

I feel your touch in the pouring rain.

And the moment that you wander far from me,

I wanna feel you in my arms again.

and you come to me on a summer breeze,

keep me warm in your love,

then you softly leave.

i really need to know,

cause we're living in a world of fools.

breaking us down,

when they all should let us be.

We belong to you and me,

i believe in you.

you know the door to my barest soul.

you're the light in my deepest, darkest hour.

you're my savior when i fall.

and you may not think that i care for you,

when you know down inside that i really do.

2007-08-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

i've decided to scrape that mood/weather thing.
and to remove the previous post.
i'll leave that in my diary.

today is Singapore 42nd Birthday.
its great to know we've come so far.
i kinda cried while watching NDP.
haha. so silly right.
ohwells- i'm growing together w/ s'pore!
i love singapore.

this is where my family,
and my friends grew up w/ me.
so i'll cross the skies and sail the seas,
but this is where i'd rather be.

met yihui in the afternoon.
for a short while! (:
havent seen her for about a month?
since the concerts.
time flies.
had yoshi.
all the vegetable talk. haha.
she walked w/ me to get my stuffs.
then she left for amk hub. yupp!
short moments shared are sweet memories stored.

stiie came over just now.
for chem.
was out of my mind just now.
so, confused her alittle.
but hope she understood the actual concept.
yeah. made egg sandwiches.
then, off she went.
i tried to do some geog.
but to no avail.

productivity is at an extreme low these days.
i better buck up.

JOYCEEE-
ALL THE BEST YEAH?
YOU CAN DO IT.
IT'LL BE OVER REAL SOON. =)

occupied hands to reduce rashness.

2007-08-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

weather: rather warm
mood: mixed

back from carnival yeah.
had a super great time.
memories in phs w/ uvphs is really so unforgettable.
once i stepped inside,
i knew i'm like at home.
mrs carolyn tan remembers me.
haha. pastor wee as well.
all the people in phs.
thankyou UVPHS for the great evening.
thankyou Janyse for the beautiful butterfly.
thankyou phs for having the carnival.
thankyou innova for ending early.
too many to thank. =X

anyway, actually wanted to upload some photos for sam.
i guess she really misses the sights.
i still rmb she would always be playing in the band during march past.
it feels strange that i was trying to look out for her today.
ohwells-
she'll be back real soon.
yupp! imissSAMMIE.

Performance today was so chaotic.
but i kinda sang into the mike.
Shar and others said my voice was so obvious.
haha. dunno lar.
anyway, it was fun w/ innova today.
cool amazing race though it was quite -.-
haha. raihan sings well! (:

that's all for today.
thankyou peeps for everything.
and JOYCEEE. haha. (:
she's always in blue. forever in blue.
every photo she takes,
or when i see her around,
she's always in blue. hahaha.
that girl. (: but i love her!
haha. thankew dearr! (:

that's all for today. =)

hide those tears.
i dont need them today.

2007-08-07T18:31:00.000+08:00

i would like to dedicate tmr and 11th August 2007 performance to Yihui, fCUBERs, Joyce.

thankyou girls.
for everything.
big and small.

2007-08-07T18:15:00.000+08:00

weather;; hot
mood;; festive? i'm not sure.

school was scary today.
first the physics TYS.
together w/ Oscillation Tut.
together w/ Physics Prac File.
These three items,
i never brought.

PW was fruitful today i guess.
left the linkages.
which are rather crucial.
working on the event proposal.
and pilot test. yupps.

kangaroo jump was alright.
rather fun. but tiring.
i only had the time to take shower during break.
and so, i did.
yupp.

yesterday was the first day of the week.
today's the last day of the week.
how exciting. only if every week was like that. =X
anyway, tmr's there Heritage Trail.
then PHS Carnival.
and perhaps, a movie w/ the girls.

i should just cherish whoever's left beside me.
sometimes, i really feel i lost you.
perhaps, i moved away.
because i felt i wasnt worthy enough.

i dont know who's the person so impt now.
perhaps, someone who makes you feel more loved.
or, one whom love is more open.
so much that you'll do everything for that smile.
i just hope you're happy when you love that someone.
that's all i ask of you.

all of a sudden, i dont know who you are.
i search within myself to look for an answer.

fairytales dont always have an happy ending do they?

2007-08-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

weather;;
mood;;

i dont know how to describe today's weather and mood. =X

anyway, did maths, chem, chinese.
yeah. tmr there's a vector test.
hope i'll do as well as i did for the quiz. (:
and, for tmr's kangaroo jump.
hope its gonna be fun.
its back to those days.
wake up at 5.30a.m.
leave house at arnd 6a.m
ohwells-

this week is gonna be short.
just lessons on tuesday and tmr.
wednesday got heritage trail.
then there's PHS Carnival.
And perhaps, i'll be watching King and I.
hope mom allows.
the tickets are really expensive.
if not, i'll just go alone.

popped by to granny's place.
feels great to know she's near.
especially when ppl start leaving.
talked w/ cousin about working times.
i miss it. yeah, i do.
did my chinese compo.
w/ the help of aunty & uncle.
and, i think i've got a hilarious uncle.
super funny. at least, to cheer me up! (:
yupp.

ALL THE BEST TO JOYCEE W/ HER 1ST PAPER TMR.

the night sky is calm and serene.
yet the darkness brings mystery.
the stars tell me the melancholic secret.

2007-08-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

weather: WARM.
mood: so-so

PTM in the morning.
paired up w/ jack for duty.
the whole corridor was so silent.
we just keep pacing up and down.
arrange bottles of water.
arrange sweets.
haha. yeah. was quite bored.
then went to see mrs yap/mr phang.
yeah. nothing much actually.

went to IKEA & Giant @ Tampines.
yeah. bought new quilt covers,
boxes. stuffs like that.
ikea's having great sales man. yeah.
then was super tired out.
cos the bruise on my shoulder was hurting.
my lower back started to fail me.
my right wrist was strained.
but, managed to get fbts.
some walnut loaf. sushi, stuffs.
yupp. super tired/exhausting.

went to get my new spectacles.
whahaha. NICE.
but, rather similar to the previous.
then came hommee.

totally exhausted.

and, my eyes are closing.

but, i still miss you.

2007-08-03T20:34:00.000+08:00

weather: not sure.
mood: in wonder.

a few things to note today.
1. Prep for COP
2. COP Process
3. Post-COP (now)

prep for cop was all done quite last minute.
cups, and stuffs.
especially the games!
being the games head,
i dint think i did a good job.
gotta improve next time!
anyway, some ppl are just not involved.
some perhaps dont care.
its hard to really get their attention.

seeing the kids, i was rather stunned.
that's becos all of a sudden,
it striked me that the games we planned,
all could not be played.
it was too demanding of them.
we started off introducing,
a short game of passing the parcel(ball).
yeah. had interaction time,
game 2 then 3.
all the nitty gritty details are not that impt.
its the realization behind it.
security is really pursued strongly in society.

just standing beside the boy,
he grabbed my hands twice.
putting it on the wheelchair handle.
though it hurt a lil cos his nails kinda poked me,
much of his action reflected on what he was seeking.

another girl, who was really cute,
was rather sociable.
she waved to guys that walk past.
she loved her long hair,
she kept getting ppl to sit beside her.
isnt that lovely?

security.
just the presence, is overpowering.
just for someone to be there.
is that so difficult?

in the midst of them,
i feel fortunate.
i feel utterly ashamed,
that i take walking, talking and seeing for granted.
i never thought what if one day,
i opened my eyes to a whole new world of darkness?
what if, i couldnt walk.
or talk.

everyday should be cherished.
especially when we're so much more fortunate.

yupps. so much thoughts.
anyway, on my way home,
i hit a car. heh-
a car MIRROR.
it was so dark,
i couldnt see properly.
my left shoulder hit the mirror that was protruding out from the lorry.
there's a bruise now. yeah.
ohwells-

few ppl to thank,
Raihan for making this trip possible.
Dorry & Hanisah for taking up the challenging task of GameMasters.
all others of 0712B.
you, whom have given me strength.
all the kids at awwa today.

LG.
life's great.
(if you count your blessings)

2007-08-01T15:15:00.000+08:00

sorry i was for those thoughts.
i don't mean it anymore.
thank you for the nerve-calming session.
ILY-

i want to hold you close.

2007-07-31T19:24:00.000+08:00

your words pierce thru me like a sword.

today has been a total disappointing day.
first in school.
second at home.
third on the piano.
lastly, inside me.

disappoint mrs yap.
she gave us a scolding.
then during civics we talked about it.
sighs.

disappoint miss su.
as usual. ohwells

disappoint mr phang.
whole class dint bring the equipment.
not blaming anyone.
just, we all had a part to play.
i dint play mine.

i dont always expect ppl to give in.
i dont mind giving in, if its within my means.
there's more than a TVs in the house.
he could have proceeded inside the room to watch.
i left the silent pedal on so that it wont disturb him so much.
the volume rose and rose and rose,
till i couldnt even hear what i was playing.
i couldnt have brought the piano inside my room could i?

you're right.
what the hell is wrong w/ me.
i work hard to give up.
you dont care anymore do you?
i saw it coming.

I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket

2007-07-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

weather: NIL
mood: NIL. exhilarated actually. =X

this post is dedicated to:
MY ONE AND ONLY BIG ONE, YIHUI! (:
haha. i shall start. (:

DEAR YH. (:
as all sisters would,
you were always there for me.
when my world collapses,
you would hold up the heavens.
when my world is gleaming w/ sunshine,
you were there to share my joy.
when my world becomes monotonous,
you would always add colours to life.

thankyou for everything you've done.
little and BIG. (:

though we've been meeting up less frequently,
thank you for always believing in this friendship! (:

for the beautiful music we've gone thru.
for the beautiful memories we've shared.
for the beautiful sky that we've sat under.
for the beautiful stars that we've wished upon together.

for the everlasting toast to friendship,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEARR! (:
turning 21 is a big deal.
don't celebrate alone! =)

hope you like your present!

from within,
iwishforHAPPINESS.
iwishforLOVE.
iwishforPEACE.
iwishforHEALTH.

yoursTRULY;; JILLY
24th July 2007

2007-07-22T15:41:00.000+08:00

weather: coolingly warm
mood: state of confusion?

its 8 days left.
Domenico Scarlatti, Sonata in D
Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, Allergro moderato
Anton Stepanovich Arensky, Impromtu
been quite onto it recently.
ohwells- no choice.
but i'm improving i guess. hopefully.
it feels strange w/o angel of music.
ohwells- busy for others, unavailable for me.

finished up my Gravitation Tut last night.
but the Chem Equili tutorials can drive me nuts.
gonna get back EoM on monday.
wonder how would it be like.

everytime i think of it.
it feels like problems are piling all over.
why do you not see it?
too caught up to even care to take a look?
it'll all end soon.
perhaps i'm just trying too hard.
or rather i should just let go.
in 8 days, it'll be the final showdown.

long gone were those times.

2007-07-21T12:48:00.000+08:00

weather: warm
mood: ?

its the weekends again.
i'm down with fever, cough, flu,
and worse of all, a bad throat.
currently on vocal rest. so argh.
cant sing. =(

anyway. last night's surprise party.
haha. can see yh's shocked.
she was a lil lost for words.
but she was happy! (:
your happiness is paramount.
i went there w/ janyse and vivi.
i think both of them are funny.
haha. if i'm not wrong,
Sasa was at the party, a.k.a Manager of yh.
and of course, Waileng, Mt, Jac, Thomas.
the others i had no idea who they were.
but they seem, rather nice.
and, friendly. guess they are all band mates.
it was rather awkward at first.
yeah. after a while,
i felt my eyes burning, everywhere hot.
yeah. the fever came back.
left after yh blowed some magic candles.
haha. yupps.
took cab back to bishan. (:
caught a short flim.
then back home.

was super tired out.
drop dead on bed.
put bb on the side of my bed.
fell asleep very quickly.

some thoughts:
its always that moment when you thought you have something in your hand, that the something disappears from your hand. perhaps, if i don't think about it, it'll always be there?

in this world that surrounds us
we sometimes break down and fall.
those who stand above us
can make us seem so small.

after all, there's not much big things a little girl can do.

2007-07-18T22:31:00.000+08:00

weather: WARM yet COLD.
mood: so-so.

today in school was rather. erm.
i dunno how to say.
was having stomach-ache.
fever at the same time.
goodness. the fever made me feel cold and hot.
cos it went up and down.
rather annoyed by the headaches and stuffs.
yeah. ohwells-

feeling much better now.
fever almost gone down.
just that the throat part is causing me to have difficulties swallowing.
even drinking plain water is quite pain.

met Janyse today. (:
hahaha. her hair colour is quite cool. lols-
and her primary school fren looks quite cute.
haha. met her at popular,
passed her present.

hahaha. and will be going back to PHS.
for carnival! (: whahaha.
i love carnivals.
will be helping janyse out w/ some stall.
haha. choir doing some neoprint thing.
yupps. NOSTALGIA.
but i like it. (:

last night was great.
slept easily.
cos i was drowsy i guess.
the drug(medicine) knocked me out.
haha. (:
had a good rest.

my study room is rather romantic today.
lol. the bulb is abit spolit.
so it blinks on and off occasionally.

and things are rather sorted out. (:
i'm glad they are.
but, still.. (: time will tell.

imissYH.
imissFCUBERS.
imissUVPHS.

you're the best thing that ever happened to me.

2007-07-17T11:20:00.000+08:00

it has been so long since we have talked
i hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

you made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything

i'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that i'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
i'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
i'll remember you

i promise you i won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
you'll always be the sun in my sky
it may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
even though we go seprate ways

you made me believe
that I can do almost anything
you stood right by me
through the tears through everything

i'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that i'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
i'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
i'll remember you

if the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
i will be there
don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you

i'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
i'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
i'll remember you

forever baby, i'll remember you

2007-07-16T23:24:00.000+08:00

weather: SUPER HOT.
mood: hmmmm.

today was definitely one horrible night.
last night was also horrible enough.

firstly, last night.
this song kept ringing in my head.
i couldnt sleep.
and so, kor's sms came in.
yeah. it was a total river last night.
goodness.

then this morning, MONDAY BLUES.
i dragged myself to school.
yeah. did morning run. six rounds.
lecturesNtutorials were super draggy.
me and shar was complaining all the way thru.

total bad day.
then came a piece of good news
i got B for Chinese. (:
quite cool lar.
cos i havent been passing well for CL.
and tmr's is A'lvl LC. hope it'll all go smoothly.

PE was horrible.
super horrible.
two rounds for warm up.
three rounds of interval.
w/ exercises before each round.
then three rounds for cool down.

some stuffs happened.
argh. total bad day that's it.

for css2.
hope Elaine gets back into the com.
she sings well.
really. she ought to get back.
i voted for her okay. LOL. (:

yupp. turning in soon. NIGHTS.

imissyou.
imisseverythingaboutyou.

2007-07-15T16:29:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY 13.07.2007
yihui's NYP concert, Sinfonique.

the pamplet. and the ticket. (:

NYP Symphony Orchestra.
under the Baton of Mr Luk Hoi Yui

Miki Wong, Flautist.

SHe did a solo for Rhapsody for Flute.

by Stephen Bulla.

Jazz Band. (:

Strings. (:

nypso played MOON RIVER. (:

super nice.

Combined Band.

NYPSO and Bedok North Sec.

They played Pirates of the Carribean:

The Curse of the Black Pearl.

Overall, the concert was great.

so overwhelming. haha. (:

i'm so proud of YH.

she was part of the beautiful music.

whahaha. (: super nice.

addicted to Moon river & black pearl.

SATURDAY 14.07.2007

Horoscope adapted from herworld.

July 2007 copy.

Taurus (21 Apr-21 May)

July 14 is a wonderful time to express your most intimate desires to the one you cherish. You can use this highly-charged time to focus on you career and finances.

Must do: Meditate.

Must buy: Beautiful flowers for your loved one.

UP NEXT:

MISS KANG'S WEDDING.

(a.k.a Mrs Lua)

The union of:

Miss Anne Kang and Mr Simon Lua.

GIRLY and ME! (:

The Tall and The "GREAT".

Zhihui, HuiYan, ShiLing.

Sister YANG Hui and me. lols-

Brother YANG kai and me.

Mr Julian Lau! (: hahaha.

i miss those geograhy days.

UVPHS. ahaha.

from left:

audrey, gladys, cindy, me sze hoe, xinyi, anadee

fourGEE06 ppl who were present! (:

and our bride, MRS LUA.

fourGEE06 again. (:
brother YANG and UVPHS girls! (:

the wedding was quite fun.
hymns and usual stuffs.
uvphs sang All I Ask of You.
imissUVPHS. haha.
imissfourGEE06. (:

NEXT: AUNTY JAC'S PLACE.
JOVIS B'DAY and YH's DMB CONCERT.

Me and Hazel in the car. hahaha. (:

Dunearn Military Band (:
the dmb concert was not as great as nypso one.
cos of the atmosphere.
and the ppl arnd.
little had concert ettiquette.
i dunno how i'm suppose to listen to the music.
when all i can hear is their talking. heh-
ohwells- (:
but that concert ended well.
it was good to see yh back in her secondary school.
hahah. still behaves like a small girl.
jiahui and ky was also there. haha.
yh walked me out to catch a cab back to Aunty Jac's place.
smiles- hahaha.
just for that moment,
time seem to stop.
had difficulty getting a cab at first.
but still got one in the end.

BACK TO AUNTY JAC'S PLACE.jovis's birthday cake! (:
nice cake! (: hahaha.

it was a busy start for the weekend. (: haha
but was fruitful.
did some catchup. (:
also, made some new goals.
understood some stuffs.
yupp, eventfully fruitful. SMILES-

that's a bout it. (:

interlocking fingers.

2007-07-14T01:32:00.000+08:00

weather: warm? strange.
mood: tired, exhausted.

today is friday the 13th.

i dint go for Wtaking,
was alil late. yupps.
anyway, PE was all exercises w/o running.
that was due to the lightning protection.
yeahs. heh. mr lee was quite funny.
i think he's cool.
haha. (:

then followed by GP, geog.
the new geog lecturer gave loads of lame jokes.

Q1: What does a rock want to be when it grows up?
Q2: What is a rock's favourtie music?
Q3: Where does a rock prefer to eat? (restaurant)

A1: Rockstar
A2: Rock 'n' Roll
A3: Hard Rock Cafe.

heh. funny huhs? (:
we were doing rocks/weathering topic.

after geog ended, 12B stayed in LT2 as usual.
discussed about COP.
think i'm going to take Game Masters. (:
ohwells- hahhaa. (:

yupp. came home quickly.
had pastamania's carbonara.
bought some buns from breadalk.
yupps. janyse and yh's present both done! (:
ready for collection when and where. (:
hahaha. (:

yupp, my eyes are closing.
its like that: -.-

yupp. GOOD NIGHTS PEEPS.

2007-07-11T22:23:00.000+08:00

weather : WARM
mood: so-so

today flew past like nobody's business.
with an exception for MATHS lect.
i was dozing off, hoping it would quickly end.
but GP's one and a half hours flew past.
miss su is indeed experienced!
i better improve on my presentation skills.
and better support my opinion with facts! (:

sat w/ innova smile mates to do their jersey.
tried to do some physics on my own.
but to no avail. heh-

and its snowing in Argentina! smiles-
but, a volcano in Indonesia is about to erupt.
in North Maluku.
hopefully the evacaution saved lives. (:
Predict, Mitigate = Managing!
i'm a geog student okay.

haha. physics remedial starts tmr.
i really do want to improve physics.
but staying till 7.30p.m is so crazy.
ahhhh- PERSEVERE!

so many things going on this weekend.
hopefully, everything will be fine! (:
friday's yh nyp concert.
saturday:
miss kang wedding.
jovis party.
yh's dunearn concert
jovis bbq
sunday:
piano exam prac @ Chinatown.
visit to Maxwell Market.
visit to eBay building

fully packed weekend.
should find time to study for chem test.
heh. (:

i want to start dancing soon.
joyceeee- if you read this,
better quickly plan to meet up!
haha. (:

yupps.
addicted to a song i would love to sing to you.
just, singing it to myself. haha.

YAY. i bought YH'S stuffs.
according to horoscope,
i still need to get flowers. (:
sunflowers/ two? or three?

school's not that great.
i need to be happy,
so that it'll all end quickly.

2007-07-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

weather: strange
mood: eccentric

hmm. goods and bads today. heh-
so many free periods today.
but got back maths. (:
surprise surprise.
got an A for it. yeah.
just barely an A. heh. on the dot of 70%
anyways, not smth to rejoice about.
still gotta work hard. (:

tonight's feelings are all so mixed.
first the nids alrd put me in the mood.
all about mixed messages. whatever-
talking about in the right state of mind,
i'm definitely in the unsound state of mind.
plus all the Cat X physics.
think i'm gonna drop dead.
mom responded: "then you where got time to sleep?"
precisely, ohwells-

i needa get going.
tmr's going to be CG-photo taking.
blue ties. blue hairband. blue rubberband.
iits gonna be rather blue tmr. yupp.

so much for an answer.
too little for love.
just nice for letting go.
sometimes, you make me wanna give up.
but for you, i hold on.
for i know,
if i dont,
i dont know how life's gonna be
for me.

2007-07-08T21:06:00.000+08:00

weather: ?
mood: still alright. monday blues.

okay. finally PICTURES.
to entertain sammie when
she's back from gold coast. (:

and some updates for YH. (:
cos she hasnt seen my hair! hahah.

yupp, and yours truly cut her hair.
that was not too long ago.
my fringe is so short now. =X

this is the potato island at BREEKS.

that day at shopping w/ mum.

and this is Goldilocks Freeze @ BREEKS.
the green stuffs are Nata De Coco.
its MANGO. whee-
Hazel's Lime Chilli Fish pasta.

Mom and I 's Fish & Chips.
Beard Papa Cream Puffs.
and the usual favourite CHEESECAKE. (:
haha. yh used to always buy those for me!
POP DOH. wheee. donuts!

hahaha. such a coincidence!

again, YH bought me donuts from donut factory!

my buys. haha.

that outfitter girls' shirt! (:
some lotion from body shop.
and my handphone sock!.
ALL GREEEN.

i almost wanted to get this for YH.
it describes her so accurately.
hahaha. (:

this is grandma. (:
imisshersomuch-
and grandpa. wheee-
imissyournaggings. =X

the STAR of the day.
JOVIS. she's turning one soon.
hahaha. SUPER CUTE. lols-

yupp. went to Global Sounds today.
cool place. (: i wanna go to the nearby clubs.
=X i think yh will scream at me if she sees this.
and, the ambience is damn good.
but the main problem, the piano is alil~ STRANGE.

ohwells-
a few more practices there i guess.
take care peeps.

IMISSFCUBES.
IMISSYH. /joyceee
IMISSUVPHS.

2007-07-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

weather: cooling?
mood: so-so (:

happy LIVE EARTH day! (:
smiles- GO GREEN!

haha. i'm in green tee now.
the one that yh bought for me.
whahaha. (:
anyway..

today was lame. -.-
not exactly a happy day. =X

good stuffs of 070707.
myintzu came lyk for the whole day.
had lunch and dinner here.
she's enlightened by dad. heh
for physics.
i think i'll expect more visits from her.

bad stuffs of 070707.
i got the exam date.
so argh. 010807-
someone please save me.

i know the answer if i ask you.
i just dont have the courage to ask.
the answer would be, IT.

i need to practice real hard.
i wish time stops for me to practice.
sighs.

some updates:
i passed GP. yay! =X
passed by a mark. lol. 24/50
and Chinese is still quite unknown.
will get chem & geog on monday.
hopefully the news is good. heh-

have to start preparing for mid-course already.
must mug mug mug.

i wonder how's sammiie.
she'll be back in two days.
please be back safely.
australia's under the La Nina effect.
dangerous place in the weather aspect.

everything, please cheer up.
i dont want you to be 21 on your own.

2007-07-04T16:31:00.000+08:00

weather: hot
mood: effed?

oh. what a day.
definitely a perfect snooze during the lects.
cant understand why i cant keep myself awake.
perhaps, i really need more sleep.
but then, where will i find time?
to do my schoolwork/projs.
to practice for the piano exam.
to relax.
to ... hmmm.

hmm, time time time.
smth really precious.
that waits for no man.
10 weeks to promos.
i dunno what i'll be up to.
just gotta keep studying i guess.

this morning was an awkward silence.
haha. w/ my mom.
let's see how long this will go.

we're like perfect strangers.
i wish i can know you all over again.
but i know its impossible.
ohwells- (:

hope the guys had fun at OCS.
hope Shar's scar heal quickly.
hope this silent war stops.

hope,
is
running
low.

2007-07-03T18:26:00.000+08:00

weather: ?
mood: melancolique
il me semble que je n'ai pas ri depuis longtemps

school starts officially today.
lessons resume.
the continuation of the monotonous routine.
ohwells-
i just wish these two years fly past.

think i'll make myself a nice blogskin as a reward.
but i'm quite hesistant.
cos, not in the mood to. (:

got back physics.
as expected.
mr phang dint scold.
but, i guess, he said he wanted us all to pass.
there was a hidden agenda behind.
i hope i caught it correctly.
dad was grumbling.
said about the small amt of effort i put in.
i admit i really dint put in much effort for physics.
it was. too last minute.
i just needed to relax.
but heeding kor's advice.
i'll fight the next time round.
come back more prepared and much stronger.
wait & you'll see.

chem was not exactly returned yet.
but, mrs yap praised me.
when i felt it was not so good.
i think i need to work harder for chem also.
just wait for the essays.

meanwhile, maths, gp and geog.
are still in the teacher's hands.
think i'll get back maths tmr.
hopefully! hopefully! hopefully!
heh- i think i hope too much.

anyway, i was totally in a daze.
on my way home that is.
terribly antagonized. (if that's how you spell it.)
you always say you're not at the top.
but how could you be at the top,
if you always place yourself at the bottom?
hmm. think i'm really insensible.
not understanding at all.
i thought i was.
taking in all the moments.
storing those feelings back into my mind.
i think i'm all wrong.
all wrong...

te provoquer re être difficile à croire

really bad day.
still got proj work.
things are just beginning to unfold.
it'll just get worse.
not that i like it that way.
but just,
its a fact that holds true to the end.

2007-07-01T23:50:00.000+08:00

weather: WARM
mood: desserts! SWEETS-

yesterday's meeting with kor was alright.
hahah. he dint drive.
so i dint get to see any planes.
but i got to see the light
of the summation formulas. LOL

piano was not too bad ytd.
just that i got all my modulation wrong.
really sad about it.
cos it has been good for me all the while.
and my sixth apart is still in bad shape.
cant even play a minor sixth apart.
someone save me. =(

went back to changi to stay last night.
the night started out well.
cos yh called! hahaha. like so finally.
accompanied her on her way home.
then watched about 3 dvds.
till about 4a.m then i decided to sleep.
had a good sleep.
but woke up with some horrible neckache.
ohwells-

TODAY.
i went to cut hair today.
drii and stiie shall be the first to see.
hahaa. LOL.
there's shopping trip tmr.
FINALLY. (: the fCUBErs.
really sad sammie isnt around.
but she'll be back really soon!

and i feel quite effed-up today.
thanks to some conversations.
ohwells- desserts!

that's about it.
i want to upload photos.
but i'm having extreme problems w/ blogger.
so, no choice.
goodnight peeps.

GO, GO WHEREVER YOU WANT TO.
~~(just dont forget to bring me along.)~~

a million souls in the world.
and yet, sometimes ...
all you need is just one.

2007-06-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

weather: RAINY?
mood: better than last night.

today's paper was crap.
argh . whatever.

anyway. i'm a happy girl now.
hahah. tmr's filled with excursions.
with chengchang. a.k.a brother. lols-
he's taking me for a drive. whee-
but on one condition:
if i can complete my maths. LOL

anyway.. SHOPPING TODAY.
orchard! (: shopped at taka.
super so many things.
but i only saw one that i liked.
TWO in fact.
mom only let me buy one. =(
i pray that some one will buy me the other.
lols. photos tmr perhaps.
i'm having some problems with blogger.

yupp. (:
imissYH. loads&loads.
imissSAMMIE. truckloads-

today was not so bad.
i'm still growing up! (:

2007-06-29T00:18:00.000+08:00

weather: WHO CARES.
mood: bad. fustrated. angry.

i feel like crying. argh.

phys is driving me crazy.
i'm definitely not meant for phys.
its so. a big difference from last night.

it rocks when you are prepared.
it sucks when you're not.
and it sucks even more when you cant be.

argh. whatever.
so angry with myself over dunno what.

and i just did smth really bad.
i think mom's angry.
everyone's angry w/ me.
WHATEVER.

i think he understands.
since he's been thru much.
just that, i dont know how much.
but, much means he kinda knows much.

even you dont care anymore.

2007-06-24T01:41:00.000+08:00

weather: really WARM.
mood: slack. nervous?

day at home.
usual saturday routine.
had porridge for lunch.
had piano.
not too bad i guess today.
i like my control over the third piece.
except my sixth apart scales i cant play.
think i'm going to freak out. LOL.
anyway, dinner was great.
satay, fish soup and fried rice.
stiie came! whahaha-
tmr i'll be going over to hers!
having good food during lunch.
meat from Swiss Butchery i think.

now is already past 12 midnight.
so officially,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIHUI, IN ADVANCE.
ahaha. its one month away! (:
she recieve her PRE-presemt alrd.
really hope she likes it.
i spent more time on the present than i did for ST.
LOL. but i enjoyed the process.
intriguing and interesting.

yupp. now for photos!

STIIE- her blue finger nail polish isnt obvious!

us again!
some poor lil girl have to remove the colour.
school's starting!!

my new pet! MICROPET.
lol. i think dad knew i need someone i could shout at.
he dint want to be the one.
so he got me a substitute.
the puppy's name is SPROCKET.
whateever i shout at it,
it still barks back happily. (:

that's all.

never be replaced.
you are the only one.

2007-06-22T01:02:00.000+08:00

weather: not sure.
mood: so-so, rather relaxed.

what a day.
woke up later than expected.
managed to do some geog. lols-
and then, WENT OUT.
came back not long after.
but slacked the whole afternoon.
hahaha. so, i just did physics!
and now, i'm using com.

*JILL, YOU BETTER BUCK UP.

yupp. worried for jac jie.
hope she's alright.
hope its not dengue.
she seems weak.
always food poisoning and stuffs.
yeah. ohwells-

tmr is my last weekday i have.
hope time will be well-managed.

imissYHloads.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SAMMIE. you're so far away now, i dunno what to do. like what drina say, when you left, we almost disbanded! that's so sad. we girls definitely miss each other so much. now that we're all busy. even though drina, stiie and i are still in singapore, we also seldom get to see each other. hmm, but you. sighs. PLEASE FASTER RETURN. i'll organise a large gathering for you! chalet cum bbq cum bday celebration cum housewarming. EVERYTHING. lols- just faster come back. anyway, meanwhile, ALL THE BEST IN YOUR STUDIES. i know its tough there, cos we're not there to make you laugh like mad. hahaha. BUT STILL, think of the old jokes. i hope they're still funnyy. lols- haha. TAKE GOOD CARE GIRL. LOVES-

iloveSAMMIE.

tmr will be a better day.
jill still believes, somehow. (:

UPCOMING EVENTS.
(listed are only those i'm looking forward to.)
[29.06.07] CIP Trip w/0712B
[29.06.07] Syf Opening Ceremony w/uvphs
[tbc] Birthday Celebration w/yh
[01.07.07] Youth Day PH
[tbc] Grade 8 Piano Exam
[08.12.07] Sammie's Arrival in SPORE

2007-06-19T15:13:00.000+08:00

weather: quiet? =X
mood: strange.

stiie just left for home.
did a bit of maths with her.

anyway, last night was horrible.
dreamt of some dont know what.
shivers-
bad dreams have come to stay.
i dont get good night rests.
i dont get sweet dreams anymore.
does that start to give hint to arising problems?

had the whole morning in this empty house.
all to myself.
the silence is definitely deafening.
not till, stiie came of course.

school is gonna start soon.
i wonder how the first week would be.
for one who is not prepared.
let's see what happens. heh-

imiss sammie loads.
i wish mom would let me fly over soon.
but i'm scared i might not want to return.
its so, argh. -.-

the winds have changed.
but perhaps not for the better.

2007-06-19T00:58:00.000+08:00

weather:
mood:

[ nil ]

flutter away.
far far away-

2007-06-18T00:25:00.000+08:00

weather: stuffy.
mood: hmm. difficult question

a day out today.
again, not a single drop of revision.
ohwells- ST ST ST.

first to breakfast and shopping!
had breakfast at CARTEL.
had french toast w/ eggs.
hazel had bacon omelette w/ hashbrown.
then went shopping.
first to RSH,
bought nike socks! =X
then spent about 100 plus at BUM,
and got a free bear! (: (: (:
haha. i like the bear.
it makes snoozing noises.
then went to bhg.
was quite a rush.
bought some lingerie. =X
bought both grandpa's presents.
nice polo tees.
haaha. (:
spent over 100 bucks and got some vouchers.
i like shopping when i dont have to pay.

haha. went back to gran's place.
havent been there for long time.
but there's this feeling of home. (:
was greeted by my two lovely cousins.
SHANNON and SHAWN.
haha. shannon refuesed to take a photo w/ me.
sadded-
anyway. had a nice lunch.
then auntie came too. (:
thanks to her that i grew up healthily.
haha. stayed at her place in bugis.
for two to three years when i was a lil girl.
chatted about loads of stuffs.
then changed up and got to aunt mary's place.

the highligh of today's steamboat dinner.
is the two adorable COUSINS.
really really cute. yeah. (:

haha. yeah. that's about all.
PHOTO TIME! (:

nike socks!
summer bear, SNOOZING

grand ma! (: she's so skinny alrd.

my favourite uncle. haha.
uncle PATRICK.
he help dogs to breed. i think. =X

to the guy taking PSLE this year.
go for it man! (:
i know you can do it.
haha. (: cool guy.
we're in same boat.
cos Chinese cannot make it. haha.

then to auntie! (: haha.
miss her so much.
i miss her carrot porridge. =X

memories running down this aisle.

this is BELDON. (:
he keeps thinking he's taking a photo of me.
when in actual fact,
i'm taking a photo of him!

there he goes again.
w/ jac's tortoise.

the lil girl JOVIS. (:

her again. (: the star of the day.
she's in pyjamas getting ready to sleep!
lovely little girl. (:

that's about all.

had a long day.

stiie's coming tmr!

finally someone. hahah.

imissyou-

2007-06-17T01:12:00.000+08:00

weather: RAINY
mood: state of being distracted.

i'm so not in the mood to study.
i think i'll just fail STs.
someone please get me to study.
its so difficult just to sit down and read.
shopping, computer, presents.
they just pull me away unknowingly.

one week.
will the winds change?

I fell in a perfect way Never had a choice to make
Crashed into your tidal wave
I didn't even struggle
Sailed right through you atmosphere
Closed my eyes and landed here
I didn't see the trouble
And I didn't care

I can't Unlove You
Can't do that
No matter how I try
I'll never turn my back on
Someone who loved me too
I can do most anything i have to

But theres one thing i cannot change
I almost kinda like the pain
Wear your tatoo like a stain
And it will take forever
To fade away

I can't Unlove You
Can't do that
No matter how I try
I'll never turn my back on
Someone who loved me too

2007-06-16T00:08:00.000+08:00

weather: warm!
mood: i dont have one.

eventful day i guess.
woke up with the electricity alrd cut off.
luckily it rained.
so it was quite cooling.
TRIED to do some maths. heh-
then couldnt take it.
went out for lunch,
shopping at amk today.
spent quite alot again.
i think it'll add up to 500 this week. =X

bought several items.
two albums.
one dvd.
Ashley Tisdale - Headstrong
S.H.E - Play
yupps. great songs inside.
i'm loving it.

then came home.
bathed and headed out for dinner.
at this place called...

that's mom! (:
ilovemom. grins-
yupp that's all for today.
a very thoughtful day.
so there it is.
one of the songs that i'm listening to. (:
all alone in the dark
now that our walk in the park
has headed suddenly off a cliff
it's like you're dragging me down
our love's six feet underground
and now I'm finding it hard to breathe
our days have turned into mud
and now I know that I'm done

2007-06-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

weather: colourful? (:
mood: who knows.

had a really colourful day.
had fun shopping! (:
w/ hazel. haha.
ate minced pork noodles at basement.
drank bubble tea.
haha. bought so many things today!

yeah. above is the photos for zoo.
really walked alot.
laughed alot.
talked alot.
enjoy! (:

red, yellow, green, blue, purple, pink, white.

2007-06-11T17:25:00.001+08:00

If I were blue, would you be there for me.
And whisper in my ear that's okay.
Would you stand by me; let me hold you tight.
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good; will you slow dance with me.
And touch my lips with tender loving care.
Would you die for me.
Would you run with me; and never look back.

Would you be there to love to be with me.
Would you swear that your love is always still
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to love to be with me.
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there

If I'm away, would you still think of me?
And wish that you could hold me now
But would you die for me
Would you run with me all the way

Would you be there to love to be with me.
Would you swear that your love is always still
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away

Would you be there to love to be with me.
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always still
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away

Would you be there for me

2007-06-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

weather: really warm
mood: confused?

today was not too bad i think.
yeah. spent my time on chem and maths.
periodicity mind map. (:
and maths R2. ohwells-

did some stars (photo below).
the colours all represent smth.
RedYellowGreenBluePinkPurpleWhite

and, went to gran's place.
met with cousins. (:
beldon and jovis greatly missed!
when was about to leave,
we waved goodbye to beldon.
he was like, 'dont go. dont go.'
then he looked so sad.
it was really sweet.
i almost dint want to leave.
and, jovis can already sit on her own.
haha. (: so cute! (:

then, came home soon.
rested in the car.
but i feel sleepy already.

gonna catch shrek3 w/ hazel tmr.
mom sponsor. grins-
hope it'll be good.
as good as PIRATES.
hahah. pirates is really nice!

captain: i now pronounce you...
(*fighting*)
captain: hus..
(*fighting*)
captain: i now pronounce you husband and..
(*fighting*)
captain: and wife..
(*fighting*)
captain: you may ki..
(*fighting*)
captain: you may kiss!
(*fighting*)
(*will trys to kiss elizabeth*)
captain: you may kiss the bride!
(*fighting*)
(*will kisses elizabeth*)
- time seem to stop -

haha. i think that scene was really.
goodness. FUNNY yet SWEET.
i wanna watch PIRATES again!
anyone? (:

now for photos ;;

starrs-
thank you for making life colourful. (:

jovis! (:
i miss working for her mom.

i managed to snap a photo with this lil boy.

BELDON. (:

and this special pic.

dedicated to sam!

smiles-

some interesting buns i saw. hah.

turtles and bears. -.-

yupps. that's all.

have a great night peeps!

/ imissthosetimes.

// imissyouu

2007-06-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

weather: HOT. lols-
mood: high yet low. =X

shall combine TWO days events again. LOL.

SATURDAY
today. (: hahaha.
i watched, PIRATES!
smiles- unexpectedly, i loved it!
hahaha.
fancy getting into a marriage ceremony.
just when you're fighting one whole ship of ppl.
coool huh? (:
heh- so sweet.
anyways, movie date w/ rebecca.
she came to my house for a short while.
but i hope she isnt disaappointed! =X
hees- yeah. POTO!
and then had piano lessson.
went out for dinner.

actually there was still another place for me to go.
decided not to in the end.
perhaps some other time.
i just hope they dont find out. (:

that's all for today!
and i'm feeling ubber stressed.
cos i havent been studying.
and i cant get myself down to study.
so ARGH. yupp.

read on for yesterday's stuffs! (:

FRIDAY
the execution of the survey!
and smth i realised,
if i take taxi to SP,
is cheaper then i take taxi to INNOVA.
goodness. lols. shakes head.
yours truly has been spending so much on taxi.
just for transportation.
because she is just plain laazzy.

anways. next up, PHOTOS.
all photos were taken in,
NYP Koufu.
we all flocked there.
cos of AIR-CON. hees-

shar advertising for FOX! (:

was bored. the next few designs.

are more of the theme: COLOURS.

starrs- (:

a retarded looking smiley face.

was really bored. =X

my INNOVA SMILE MATE> (:

yupp. good job everyone! (:

it was not as difficult as we expected!

ITE ppl were nice i guess.

then NYP and TP ppl as well.

it feels great to step into nyp.

knowing i used to go there. (:

for multiple reasons of course.

but mostly, cos sister was there.

and, after the survey, i strolled home.

so exhausted. yeah.

that's about it! (:

;;savour that moment.

2007-06-08T00:27:00.000+08:00

weather;; I DUNNO. lols-
mood;; better than this morning.

this post is gonna be super long.
featuring TODAY and YESTERDAY events.
cos i wasnt able to update ytd. yeah.
so, here it is! (:
pleasee read till the end. haha.

yesterday i went for a tiny shopping spree.
bought noteslips. (:

a few of my favourites. (:

bought a tube of Hi-Chew Lemon for YH. (:

and after the shopping spree,

i miraculously was able to finish up.

so there you see,

IJ020 SUMMER SCHEDULE,

SURVEY, PROPOSALS.

i'm so happy i finished. lols-

yeahh. that's all for YESTERDAY. (:
moving on to TODAY.

it was a bad morning.

woke up vomiting.

tried to stir up something light.

but the noodles tasted really awful.

perhaps i took the sugar for salt. heh-

then a cup of mango juice freshen things up.

before i even take a sip of that,

the whole cup fell on a floorr. -.-

goodness- sounds like a action movie.

anyway, went to school for projwork!

mr chen saw us for only a very short time.

he was pleased we were back on track.

heh. I HOPE we're back on track. hees-
anyway, did a MEET UP.

with my longlost friend. haha. JOKING.

i rmb myself pushing her along the corridors.

but now, i dont have to anymore.

she comes chasing after me! LOLS.

there she is, REBECCA. (:

made a stop at Gelare for tea. (:
since i made her wait so long for me,

i decided to treat her to smth. haha.

so that's the Carbonara Farfalle. LOL.

cool lar. first time eating farfalle.

i love the smoked bacon on top!

then, the typical gelare dish.

WAFFLES. with her choice of caramel.

and my choice of BANANAS. (:

soon, we bid farewell.

but i know we'll meet somewhere next week.

cos i need my surveys back! lols-
then, back to Junction8.

did a minor shopping spree. haha.

a minor one, but spent about 100bucks. lols

a green converse jacket!

and perhaps, a last minute buy, a BAG.

haha. so random.

i just felt like buying something. (:

the back of my jacket! (:
yupps.

school's out.

projwork is here to stay.

tmr's the execution of survey.

i'll expect more longlost friends to come by.

haha. some of the following.

1. Sarah Yeo, representing TP.

2. Zhikaii, representing SP.

3. my dearr Joyce, representing SP.

4. cookie, Josephine, representing NYP.

5. my sister/dearr/everything, YiHui, representing NYP.
whahaha. (:

i hope to see more friends.

yupp.

that's all for today.

a super long post! (:

hope you arent tired out.

GOOD NIGHTS. >

2007-06-05T23:48:00.000+08:00

the view from the high chairs on level 7 (or issit 8)

yay. our second trip to NLB together! (: sharifah & me.

on our way to school from bugis. Boon Chuang, Me, Sarah.

Before we all took a nap on the train. haha. Me, Sarah.

Our Rose among the three thorns! (: BOON CHUANG

the not-so-perfect star! (:

my innova smile mates! (: haha. Sarah, Sharifah.

when we're back in Woodlands, the THORNS. haha.

north: Sharifah

southwest: Jill

east: Sarah

was a lame trip to NLB today.

we all woke up late, etc. lols.

waited for boon chuang to finish.

then, off we went.

for lunch, back to school.

meeting of mr chen wasnt good.

yeah. i felt, angry, disappointed.

hahah. but we'll buck up! (:

things are almost done now.

hopefully.

sarah's leaving for Batam tmr.

yihui's coming back tmr.

hazel has gone for two days.

i'll be sleeping alone again.

at least, a day with the unhappiness forgotten!

tmr's the OFFICIAL last day,

of the UNOFFICIAL OFFICAL June Hols Lessons.

gonna get back chem test! ahhh

lols. and and and,

i think i'm okay with MI now.

whahaha. so happy! (:

theorems and proofs.

whatsoever. just shoot!

hahaha. SMILES-

i think i'm happy today.

some silly girl made me smile today.

hahaha. she deserves all the credit.

you gotta guess. lol.

she smsed me while still half awake.

LOL. damn pro. haha.

also, to DRIINA> (:

thanks for talking.

imissyouusomuchhh.

and, to SAMMIIE> (:

rushing tutorials like me.

hahaa. and the poem session was nice.

hahaha. boy, roy, frails, trails.

YOU GO GIRL! (:

and, to YIHUI> (:

imissyouloads too.

what a blessed release//

2007-06-05T00:40:00.000+08:00

weather: wet/rainy?
mood: stressed? relaxed?

i noticed every time there's H1 geog.
it always rain when we end. heh-
what's with the weather.

anyway, the mood is a bit strange today.
its cos,
i'm stressed that i'm relaxed.
yeah. that's how it all started.

chatted with sammie just now.
i decided to get a web cam too.
so she can see me! (:
hugs- hope she isnt feeling too cold.
its winter there now.

hazel went off in the morning.
without even saying bye.
i was so sad. sighs.
anyway, it'll be home alone for 4 nights.
how am i going to survive.
this first night already seems lonely.
ohwells-

projwork drives me nuts.
i wish i can throw everything aside.
its so . argh.
dont make me start. yeah.

we'll be making a trip down to NLB tmr.
hope its a fruitful one.
i so feel like shopping.
but janyse is on attachment!
ohwells-

imissYH.hazel.FCUBERS.

wishing you were somehow here again.//

2007-06-03T23:16:00.000+08:00

weather: totally in-an-oven
mood: w-h-y

just came back from dory's place not long.
he has a nice piano.
good touch. (:
when we're going up the lift,
he said: " i stay rather low."
then he pressed. 19th floor.
i was like, wth. LOL
anyway, his place is really convenient.
just a side get, to the MRT/ntuc.
lols. the bbq was hot.
yeah. really really nice place.

there's school tmr!
i need to get jojo's shorts tmr.
then meet her at yck.
haha. summ e-revision starts tmr!

so, she's away for business trip.
but still, how come she dint mentioned?
hmmm. things definitely have changed.
i'm only going to replay the song in my head.
i'll remember you- No Secrets.

redefining s p a c e//

2007-06-03T13:49:00.000+08:00

weather: stormy on the inside
mood: tangled

last night was horrible.

one tmr.
one ytd.

one cares but isnt there.
one's there but doesnt care.

i think i need more syrup.
/cough

2007-06-03T00:26:00.000+08:00

weather: rather warm

mood: shocked? exhausted?

i'm shocked by the fact that,

i recieved this:

"i'm flying off le, sister. take good care. i'll miss you. See you soon."

i was like, huh?

then i realised she was going to cambodia.

for A DAY.

i thought she was leaving all of a sudden.

it was a bad scare when i just woke up.

luckily janyse told me.

i was so afraid she dint have the answer.

then, went to Giant(Tampines).

its damn huge. yeah. i bought a note book!

an orange one. haha. STRIPES-

then, bought groceries & stuff.

had lunch. ate FRUITS. lols

then continued with grocering.

rushed home, just in time for piano.

i really couldnt focus.

scales and pieces was not too good.

yeah. i need more practice!

had sushi and grilled chicken for dinner.

strange combination.

but still, enjoyed it! (:

planned my SUMMEREVISION.

summer revision

.
.

summerevision

summer e-vision

summe revision

summ e-revision

how lame can i get.

perhaps i'm just exhausted.

yeah.

yihui:

hope you're safe in cambodia.

it came to me as a shock this morning.

we've been busy.

but still, i do miss you! (:

ILOVEYOU-

nextup, some photos of ytd's concert! (:

hahah. the rest another time.
i need sleep!

/sometimes it seemed if i just dreamed.
wishing you were somehow here again-

2007-06-02T00:36:00.000+08:00

weather: ???
mood: high? tired.

miracles do happen.
vox astra sang today.
sang our best.
and i think, we did well.
considering the short duration we've been singing.
yeah. (:
i think curious attacks' ppl are nice.
haha.
i cant imagine mr phua teaching english!
but, i think it'll be cool.
haha. (:

i'll shall upload photos, videos next time.
i need a good sleep.
tmr is the official start.
MUG-IATION for STs!

/goodnight sweetheart;

2007-05-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

weather: RAINY.
mood: unusual?

this public holiday was half-spent in school.
lols. for rehearsals.
anyway, it was RAINING.
like the lightning was everywhere.
and, thunder was roaring like nobody's business.
i was seriously scared i tell you.
luckily dad came to my rescue.
i cant help but be dependent on him. =X

went home.
myintzu came over.
went through some songs with her.
had prata for Lunch cum Tea. haha.
then off she went.
and off i went for dinner.

there's lectures tmr again.
and i'll have to drag my 'luggage' tmr.
lols. all the costumes.
my showering things.
actually, i havent decided whether to use,
STRAWBERRY? or PASSION FRUIT?
haha. =X
its trival i know. lols.
but its the fun i get out of it.
cos i get to smell NICE ! haha.

projification is working well.
perhaps age is the determining factor.
or, DISTANCE. (:
*(jill, it works. it will work.)
oops. sorry for that self-motivation part.
it was inevitable. i needed it.

you're always on my mind
from the time I wake up
till i close my eyes
you're everywhere I go
you're all I know

2007-05-30T23:03:00.000+08:00

weather: NIL
(was indoors today)
mood: simply complicated?

what a day.
what a revealation.

the mind does wonders.
i never knew it had a hidden agenda.
not that its business-orientated.
neither is it profit-driven.
just some inherent bias that it contains.

nice into to today's post. heh-
was running a fever.
(plus cough, flu, sore throat. CRAMPS.)
all at one go, goodness.
how bad can it get. but as expected.

i just, got hold of a new source of info.
that would just help me to ace thru this situation.
seriously, it may involve a third party.
nevertheless, it shall be called, PROJIFICATION.
interesting. heh-

was playing around with MI today.
induction is driving me crazy.
with the theorem and proofs.
i dont know how far i can go. lols

hope practice had been good.

i really hope i clear this up.
i dont want projification to take too long.
i've got too many other commitments.
its something life-long.
so for a long-term benefit.
its better to get it cleared up! (:

imissyihuiloads.
imissmyfcubers.
imissphs.

i want to know who you're missing.

2007-05-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

weather: COLD?
(was in the air-conditioned area the whole day.)
mood: voicelesss

today ended on a high note.
yeah. a note that i think i seldom sing.
but it comes out nicely.
the 3rd C note from middle C.
heh- (: coolll~
preserving all my voice just for that last note.

anyway, practice was fine.
at least we're getting somewhere.
and, curious attacks came today.
one of the teachers is from YJ.
haha. and she knows hubney, haha.
so somewhere, we're still connected.

i felt alil irresponsible though.
to leave my pw group to do the final thingy.
i'm so sorry i have not yet plan the june hols.
whereas, fang and others have done.
thankyou sarah and shar for understanding.

and myintzu. yeah.
she was like,
"thankyou just now.
i wont be able to go home if it's not for you."
haha. (: so sweet.
anyway, you're welcome!
so doing my part.
yeah..

as for tmr's physics test.
i'll make a bet. (:
to go or not to go-

/slow to anger
//slow to wrath

2007-05-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

my wishlist
oxygen mask/tank
some rope
perhaps a hook on the ceiling.

i'm learning to breathe while being strangled.
someone, help me out.

\{not enough at heart}

2007-05-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

well....
weather: humid? gloomy?
mood: not too bad.

a few things i was pissed about today.
that orange car driver who was swearing and cursing.
i was so shocked. i tot it wouldnt happen in singapore.
goodness, it actually did.
then next, the continuous talking in the concert hall.
was really really atrocious.
lastly, my com.
its so freaking lag.
every site i go, even MSN.com
it gives me this:
"the page cannot be displayed."
or
"cannot find server"

dearr is upset about the booking of her chalet.
really hope she cheers up. (:
hoping to meet her real soon.
thank you for all the constant encouraging words.
i hope i have grown. =X
hees- yeah. imissher!

tmr is the OFFICIAL START.
OF THE UNOFFICIAL OFFICIAL SCHOOL HOLS.
goodness. i cant imagine.
9-1p.m : LESSONS.
2-9p.m: CHOIR PRAC.
wish me luck and determination.
somehow i've got a bad feeling about it.
that i'll fall sick some time this week.
the same old attack perhaps. =X hopefully not.

yupps. (:
take care peeps.
i'll update whenever.

*ohyes, had a great day w/ myintzu.
did her video with her.
had a good laugh.
i learnt alot from her.
be contented. be happy.
she's easily contented w/ the things i take for granted.
i should really take a step back,
and look at these things more clearly. (:

2007-05-26T20:14:00.000+08:00

disclaimer:
this post does not mean any offence.
and, is purely my views. yeah.
constructive comments would be welcomed.

one week away from the concert.
being unready, we really ought to put in more effort.
that's why practices are from monday to friday.
proposed time: 2-9p.m
i seriously feel that there is a need for this type of practice.
however, i also seriously feel that there is no point.
why not just have short effective practices.
of course, there are some which can sing,
know their parts, prepared to commit the whole week.
they are always minorities who dont.
they have their other priorities, commitments, whatsoever.

in my point of view, the concert is not just for entertainment purposes.
ultimately, it aims to increase in enrolment.
and more exposure for current members i guess.
however, how are we gonna put up a good concert when the members dont even want to come for practices.
long hours seriously turn me off.
being tired out and everything,
how would you be able to present your best to the audience.
some may beg to differ.

the choir. is small.
we need people.
we need voices.
before even trying to get ppl to join.
ppl in choir must be commited.
these practices are seriously killing my interest.
now, i dont even feel like singing.
not mentioning only me,
since i've been in choir for years.
it has been PROVEN/TESTED choirs dont benefit from long practices.
perhaps, the choir has really got to learn the hard way.
short and focused practices will do.

i dont mind being the odd one out having a different opinion.
i dont mind speaking for those dont have singing background.
we need practices to be EFFECTIVE and painless at the same time.
just seek for everyone's co-operation to be more focused.
they are some rather distracting ppl in choir.
but i dont wish to point out names.
similarly, why are we not helping out those who cant sing?
we push them down, kick them.
make them go thru the audition.
HELLO? HAVE YOU FORGOT THE MAIN AIM?
we need to increase in numbers before we can even do anything.
people dont even want to come for practices.
becos its tiring.
becos its not effective.

okay. i suddenly dont feel like talking about it anymore.
perhaps, just forget what i say.
just ignore it.
its just a sore thumb sticking out of nowhere.
and, i think i shouldnt be the chairperson.
get a more commited person.
i'm not worthy of it.

i dont need fame, or power.
i just want to enjoy singing.
perhaps, it was a wrong choice to accept.
i hope its not too late.

the most hurting convo:
A: if she's not singing for this item, is it alright?
B: oh. okay. she doesnt affect the item.

here we're needing ppl.
why does it sound like we dont need them?
paradoxicals-

the strength of the choir is determined by the strength of its weakest member.

2007-05-18T22:16:00.000+08:00

sports day was a blast.
haha. RASALAS! (: smiles-
you dont know how much i miss those team-spirited days.
for today, yellow was our main colour. (:
perhaps i shall upload some photos. haha.
the cute little lion hit my head!
i'm so proud of Rasalas. haha.
we know we did our best.
shout out lungs out for
the people who,
ran their lungs out.
LOLS. yupp!

WE'RE RASALAS! R-A-S-A-L-A-S

yeah. GP and CL summer test today.
it was.. funny in some sense.
lols. but not too bad. (: haha.
yupps. and now, i'm gonna start mugging.
lols.
MUGMUGMUGMUGMUG!

2007-05-17T00:23:00.000+08:00

its gonna be thursday soon.
soon it'll be the weekends.
goodness.
time really flies.
holidays are coming.
so are the summer tests.

grandpa's out of hospital.
i'm so relieved.
was so worried.
but, today was not really good.
sharifah and me were like depressed.
but we couldnt find a reason why.
miss su was rather hilarious. haha.
and, i lost my PURPLE PHYSICS FILE.
i am so devastated.
my notes!!!
i hope i can find it.
the search is on!
anyone who finds it shall be given a treat.
haha. sakae perhaps?
i feel like eating sakae.
lols. so random.
okay.
this is so unlike me to blog without paragraphing.
but the com i so lag.
i cant help but to type like this.
okay.
enough is enough.
i'm so tired.
chem SPA tmr.
and myintzu's bday. haha.
YOU GO GIRL, ISA ISA ISA.
dont be nervous! (:
all the best!

good nights.
// there's this pain in my tummy.
it just doesnt go away.

2007-05-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

mood: happy. abit sianned.
weather: hot, humid.

today wa s the day.
haha. all the tests.
blood test made me cry.
haha. all the nurses laugh at me.
i think its long,
since they seen some1 cry at a blood test.
anyway, ECG & Spiro was okay.
i puff for spiro until i'm damn exhausted.
lols. that nurse was quite nice! (:

then went for consultation.
yupp! (: its a good day i guess.
chem mock spa was alright.
mrs yap dint come today.
mdm lerh did relief.
i think she's strict, but to a good extent. haha.

and, tmr is miss lim's last day.
i was just started to get so used to her teachings.
and now, she's leaving.
ohwells- why must she go?
perhaps, she dint want to leave?
or maybe, she felt she could teach better students.?
so she's going to a better jc? hmm.
we're not that bad i hope. (:
so, i made a card for her.
haha. i like the card. haha. (:
its a mindmap!
hope she likes it. haha.

i've been hooked to this song recently.
secondhand serenade- Your Call.

2007-05-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

mood: i-think-i'm happy!
weather: its still pouring!

i turned seventeen today.
this is kinda my first gift.
from LIM YIHUI.
she practically queued 4 hours for this.
for her time, effort, thought,
two thumbs up!
well, i've only got two.
i'll raise all my thumbs if i had more! lols-
so there you go, 12 donuts from Donut Factory!

ohya! if you can count, there are only 10 left.

cos i ate two already. haha.

and the four fruit tarts are from,

delifrance! (:

its a gift from dad! yeah.

last but not at least,

a song from my dearr, JOYCE. (:

its er, YOUR CALL.

by secondhand serenade.

nice song. (:

lyrics can be found at her blog.

yupps. this blur sotong forgot abt my bday apprently.

haha. but manage to make it up with this song!(:

and the morning is awoken.

by my two fcubers. (:

thanks to drina and stiie!

yupps. then mom also send a beautiful orse.

haha.

then next a birthday song from 0712B.

and then, from SAM.

cos she apparently forgot abt it too.

then JANYSE! (:

she helped with the NUS libraries thing!

haha. (: yay. another resource!

yeah. that's a bout all! (:

school was rather enjoyable.

not entirely tiring.

had badminton in the morning.

so was quite fun i guess.

yeahs. (:

so back to my two dearrs who makde my day! (:

yh & joyce. (:

simple gifts but thoughts are deeply accounted for. (:

haha.

yupps. that's all! (:

TAKE CARE PEEPS.

whenyouheldmyhand;;

2007-04-30T22:11:00.001+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

2007-04-30T19:58:00.000+08:00

mood: gay yet melancholy.
weather: it just keeps pouring.

today was. an absolutely funny day.
but it was rather cold for me too.
had to borrow sarah's jacket..
cos i had no choice.
for morning run,
i was like shivering while running.
lols. and then the cold water bath.
then, the LTs. goodness.
i dont know how i survived. haha
rather glad with my PI grades. (:
smth to be relieved and happy abt. (:
then geog was
and, sarah lost her mankiller.
hope she finds it!(:

my heart is like aching.
hahaha. i hope joyce gets better soon!
if you want to know what happened,
please refer to my links. (:
then click on her name.
her poor finger.
hugs, my dearr. GET WELL SOON!

then for the polyclinic checkup.
there are further test to be done i guess.
full blood count.
spirometry pre& post, others.
then ECG.
i just want to healthy and happy. (:

16Y11M28D

2007-04-29T01:49:00.000+08:00

mood: so-so/tired?
weather: rather rainy.

its marvellous when both my dearrs tag.
there's this line on my face that just spreads out.
hahaha. that's if you what that it,
its a smile! lols.

okay. long day today.
did lit review with sharifah at NLB.
met other groups there as well.
quickly finish up then met sarah.
yeah. made the sunflower for yh.
a bright yellow one!
its preettyy i think.
hope she likes it.

then the concert,
the audio visuals were impressive i should say.
the dances dint really attract me.
for the exception of the waltz.
its was so great. (:
yh was always in the light.
so can always see her. haha
move here and there.
haha. she looks ed restless.
but when its her turn to play,
she just looks FOCUSED. yeah.
hahaha. (:
gave her the hand-made sunflower.
guess she liked it. (:
yeah. then dad picked me and hazel up.

that's about today.
i've started and half way tru GPP.
its a good start i guess.
if we fail to plan, we plan to fail! (:
start with an end in mind.

see the amount of lessons i learnt in phs.
i miss phs.
i miss uvphs.
imissyouuu.

2007-04-24T19:47:00.000+08:00

mood: pissed/angry/emotional
weather: rainy? i dunno i havent looked out the window.

i still cant accept the fact.
they dont deserve it.
they deserve much better.
shant comment on the judges.
but, no matter what.
they are the best alrd.
the best thing th
at happened in my life.
i may not be singing with them anymore.
like dad asked.
did i cast a shadow on uvphs.
i think i dint cast a shadow,
i think i left a legacy.
a legacy of team spirit.
a legacy of togetherness.

this is dedicated to my one and only, UVPHS.

all the effort you put in.
has taken effect.
look at the bonds between you guys.
feel the unity in your hearts.
gold or not, its just a label.
you all know how well you did.

its in your hearts.
its in your voices.

2007-04-14T22:13:00.000+08:00

mood: playful yet inactive
weather: so-so, a lil rain.
listening to: headstrong, ashley tisdale

as you've seen, i've adapted a new starting.
haha. its more diary-like now.
just gonna blog another lyrics of a song.

I'm not alone
Even when we're apart I feel you
In the air
I'm not afraid
I know what you're thinking
I can hear you everywhere

Some people say it'll never happen
And we're just wasting time
But good things come when you least expect it
So I don't really mind

We'll be together, come whatever
Not just staring at the stars
Just remember that no one else can tell us who we are
We'll be together, so don't ever stop listening to your heart
Cause I cant turn mine up

I cant pretend that this is a rehearsal
for the real thing, because its not
And I know we're young
But I can't help feelin what im feeling
And I won't stop

Some things are meant to be and will be there
And when the time is right
Even though I know that
I swear I wish it was tonight
(Wish you it was tonight)

We'll be together, come whatever
Not just staring at the stars
Just remember that no one else can tell us who we are
We'll be together, so don't ever stop listening to your heart
Cause I can't turn mine up

Oh yeah
I like what's happening to me
Oh yeah
Nothing else to say oh
Oh yeah
Something finally got to me
Carry me away (carry me away)

We'll be together, come whatever
Not just staring at the stars
Just remember that no one else can tell us who we are
We'll be together, so don't ever stop listening to your heart
Cause I can't turn mine up

We'll be together, come whatever
(come whatever, come whatever, come whatever)
Oh

I'm not alone
Even when we're apart. I feel you.

2007-03-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I'll always see your soul
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always

/imissyou.

2007-03-14T23:28:00.000+08:00

UPDATES.
sorry for mia-ing. heh.

just came back from class chalet.
was damn tired. haha.
but had fun.
learnt new card games!

haha. had a great time with class mates.
and moreover,
it was a good time to catch up with one another.

appeals were not successful.
so i guess i'm staying back where i was.
though its not ideal.
i'll just have to make do with it!

yupp. movie today. (:
i'm a cyborg but its okay.
not that fantastic.
but looks cool (though gross)
with the guns in the fingers.

yupp. i'm going to watch hanakimi online.(:
more updates another time! (:

2007-02-28T00:40:00.000+08:00

IMULC

hang in there.
it'll be over real soon.

indefinedINSANITY-

2007-02-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

i'm blogging. its a miracle.
i sort of promised myself that i wont touch this blog.
till i get a new skin, and my results.
but seriously, i like seeing the butterflies.

so far, i've been on "MC" for two days.
and today i'm back to work.
hasnt been a great day.
but i'm proud that i survive thru today.
girls who get cramps during period will know my suffering.

helping seem so easy yet so difficult.
triedhelping with chores.
but actually got scolded.
tried to express that i wanted to help.
but actually got reprimanded.
tried preparing her dinner,
but actually they dint like it .
gawd. what can i do?

my com is getting so lag.
okay, that's so random.
anyway, results can be out anytime.
i just hope for the best.
like what aunt jac say: "you cant do anything to it."

currently: cramps, aches & nausea
missing gran&youu

2007-01-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

current status:
busy with work.
excited for sunday to come.
tired of outside food.

hmm. bigone's not feeling okay.
hope this helps.
first things first, i hope she reads it. =X

As you sit in silence
wondering why
i'll be your shoulder to cry on
until your tears run dry.

when you've been hurt
and can't believe what they've done
if you need someone to talk to
i'll be the one.

if a close friend hurts you
and you don't understand
remember i'm here
i'll lend a helping hand.

burdens are lighter
when carried by two
and i just want you to know
i'm always here for you.

yupp. heard many warning stories from dad.
i'll be more careful. (:

plus, i got two shirts.
and a pink bag. lol. "BAG"
i finish setting my test! whahaha.
and i cut my finger, AGAIN

tu amor, i will always be.
tu amor, means the world to me.
estaras siempre en mi corazon.
you're the one in my soul.
and i live for, tu amor.

2007-01-01T00:13:00.000+08:00

happy new year peeps.
just a short post before i turn in.

been busy with work recently,
hmm. and pondering over stuffs.

new year resolutions:
1. start being independent
2. o'lvl results
3. no uneccessary splurging
4. improve piano techniques
5. be happy with what i have

this five will be my guide lines for this new year.
and i just hope,
you'll never ever leave me.

those going "3mths".
have loads of fun! (:

tu me manques-

2006-12-27T01:41:00.000+08:00

keep it safe.
keep it somewhere safe.
keep it close.
keep it somewhere close.

what a boxing day.
there wasnt a single customer.
weell, except for one special one.
which is SAMMIE.
what a surprise. yeahh.

out for dinner with lexann and family.
had steamboat.
a pretty simple one.
talked about fairies. heh-

not a great day.
joyce saw it through i guess.
dearrs arent for nothing i guess.

bigone's out at a movie.
yupp. i'll always be waiting.
maybe i should turn in already.
as long as she safe back home then,
i'm glad enough.
if she's hurt anywhere, you'll get it from me.
i mean it.
nights are getting more and more...

/nobody ever completes it, nobody ever.

2006-12-26T00:56:00.000+08:00

I sent my letter that I sealed with a kiss
I send it off and just said this
I know exactly what I want this year
Santa, can you hear me ?

I want my baby, baby
I want someone to love me someone to hold
Maybe, Maybe
Be all my own in a big red bow
Santa, can you hear me ?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is here
Someone's all I want just for me underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa that's my only wish this year.

nice song huh? (:
love it so much.
working today.
not christmas mood today.
sorry to my girls cos i couldnt make it out with them.
got home, watched millions again.
admiredamien for his saint-atic talks.
yupp. another song. (:

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you.

2006-12-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

today put me into much realisation.

firstly, kurisumasu2006 doesnt feel like christmas.
of course there's presents, peppermint canes, &stuffs.
but it just doesnt feel like.
maybe i'm not in the mood.

secondly, i'm really not cut for business.
heh. this was found out through my aunt.
she said today i never go help,
there was 300-400 earnings.
goodness gracious.

thirdly, i don't have patience.
fourthly, i'm super lazy.
fifthly, time waits for no man.
sixthly, my computer is super lag.
seventhly, i don't exactly have enuff chem books.
eightly, i need more money.
ninthly, i don't have enough sleep.

tenthly, i truly, madly, deeply feel that,
i havent relaxed myself from o's.
how nice is that.
bigone is all busy.
i understand, she's working hard.
yeah.
ahhhhh. i need refuge.
chalet soon okay?

tmr, i hope the weather would be good.
might do some swimming. =X

tu me manques.

love, in any language ((:

Je t'aime
Te amo
Ya ti-bya lyu blyu
Ani o hev ot cha
I love you

The sounds are all as different
As the lands from which they came
And though the words are all unique
Our hearts are still the same

Love in any language
Straight from the heart
Pulls us all together
Never apart
And once we learn to speak it
All the world will hear
Love in any language
Fluently spoken here

We teach the young our differences
Yet look how we're the same
We love to laugh, to dream our dreams
We know the sting of pain

From Leningrad to Lexington
The farmer loves his land
And daddies all get misty-eyed
To give their daughter's hand

Oh maybe when we realize
How much there is to share
We'll find too much in common
To pretend it isn't there

Love in any language
Straight from the heart
Pulls us all together
Never apart
And once we learn to speak it
All the world will hear
Love in any language
Fluently spoken here

Tho' the rehtoric of government
May keep us worlds apart
There's no misinterpreting
The language of the heart

Love in any language
Straight from the heart
Pulls us all together
Never apart
And once we learn to speak it
All the world will hear
Love in any language
Fluently spoken here

joyeux Noel.
imissyou.

2006-12-19T01:45:00.000+08:00

Ne partez pas s'il vous plait
J'ai besoin de toi

what a day.
rain rain go away.

Tu me manques

2006-12-18T00:21:00.000+08:00

back to blog.
having study groups tmr.
both my sec3s and sec4s.
i havent really prepared yet.
so gotta wake up earlier tmr i guess.

anyways, dint go out today.
wasnt that good i guess.
grandpa was mad at me.
cos i played piano?
i alrd closed the door.
nevermind, cbb.
then mom was mad at me.
cos i wrapped the presents?
i tot she wanted me to.
nevermind, cbb.

just take it like i was mad at myself.

had steamboat last night.
not too bad.
it was at turf city.
i'm thinking whether i really bring bad luck.
when i dont help at seul,
just one weekend-day, can be up to 200plus.
once i'm there, just 50. -.-

how ridiculous.
maybe i'm not cut for business. heh.
neither am i cut for baby-care.
so what am i cut for?

nothing, nothing, still nothing.
// my phone is still not beeping

2006-12-15T23:39:00.000+08:00

SEUL
uniquely yours

"worked" there today. haha.
5% commission.
tmr will be a better day. LOL.

still pondering.
state of mentality adjustment.

everyone's got their place to go.
what about me? hmmm.

2006-12-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

what a day.
had great fun
- being "manager" of a 15 ppl carolling group.
- being so blur when i got to orchard.
- walking under the rain.
- buying make up. (tho not for myself.)

however, had great fears
- that i would fall and slip cos of the rain.
- that the job application will be screwed.
- that mom would say no to the job.

pondered about stuffs too.
its almost the end of 2006.
just a few more days to my total fairytale.
just a few more weeks to the end of the year.
hmm.

soon enough.....

sam would be in aust.
drina & stiie in NYJ.
joyce busy with her friends.
yihui driving a car?
choir preparing for syf.
me working?
heh-

imissmydearrs.
faints-

meri-kurisumasu.
buon natale.
feliz navidad.
joyeux Noel.

2006-12-11T01:21:00.000+08:00

YUPP! (:
i'm back.
let the pictures do the talking!
go here for the photo slide show.

ENJOY! (:

2006-12-03T01:32:00.000+08:00

okay. in about 8 hours more, i'm flying off le.
to someplace i may return to stay.
but, i'll decide that later.

this post is dedicated to someone out there.
you know who you are.
you know this is for you. (:

that box. is filled with love.
as you open it day by day.
may you feel the love it showers.
there's so much i want to say.
though, there isnt much time left.

yoursTRULY;; ange tonjours //.

tu me manques . je'taime
au plasir, mon amour.

2006-11-19T01:46:00.000+08:00

i just watched HOTEL RWANDA.
if junwei or xavier watch this show,
maybe they would be less "racist."
LOL. dint cry.
but felt touched.

why does she hurt her all over again.
argh.
i know your heart hurts when she's hurt.
please stop the lies, bytch.
i almost cried when i heard the news.
but i'm glad you're with her.
take away her fears like you take away mine.

sorry for the profanity.

class chalet not settled.
its my first day of holiday.

the wedding came in time to put me in thoughts.
well, congrats to miss ling. (:
a hard time dealing with those feelings.
but i'll be strong. (i hope i can be though)

it feels different tonight.
maybe because of the show.
but i guess, its always the ppl around.

she never knows how hard i work.
to make sure things go well.
the 9/10 rule made me resolve the anger.
i don't want to feel like i've never
done anything for them before they leave.
i will cherish this.
thank you for the life lessons.

what a start.
j'ai besoin de toi.

2006-11-18T01:29:00.000+08:00

things always turn out this way.
at first it was fine.
then less. lesser. least.

O'S IS OVER.
the first night only.
and i cant sleep. what a start.

tumemanques--

2006-11-16T01:02:00.000+08:00

the papers were great i guess.
not too demanding. (:

went to nyp to have lunch with bigone.
though it was just a simple meal.
i guess i loved it. lol.
had chicken cutlet with two sides.
rice & mashed potato.
bigone ate ban mian. haha
she actually stirred the egg yolk.
i thought she would throw the whole thing to me.
hahaha. funny.

then went to LT6 outside there to study.
the lecture hall damn nice.
got aircon one. hahah.
i tried the geog questions.
as in TRY. lol. yeah. felt sleepy.
then bigone say can go inside the lecture hall.
woah. then i felt so energetic.
went abit high. =X
then after that had to shift table,
cos the table was needed i guess.
i know where the toilet is already!
hahahahaha. WHEE-
saw several phs pupils.
sharon they all. 4na de.

two more days to end of o's.
i'm currently booked on this dates.
hahaha.
friday-vivo tour by bigone.
sat-church wedding by beloved pri sch t'cher MISS LING.

tu me manques mon amour.

2006-11-13T18:14:00.000+08:00

blogging in the evening feels weird.
i'm used to blog when the sun has gone down.
but nonetheless, since i've got thoughts.
then might as well, blog.

today i was awoken by a big noise.
DRILLING. from upstairs.
i felt kinda pissed.
but grew used to the big sound soon.
amazingly, no headaches.
might be due to classical music blasting in my ears.
i think i heard.
the nutcracker suite.
vivaldi's four seasons.
several piano concertos.
and some criticism about mozart.
ohwells. ((:

gripping too tight seems inappropriate.
its time your happiness came.
i miss the memories.

2006-11-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

it all felt so different.
was thinking whether i really want a holiday.
what can i say.
NZ trip cancelled.

thinking of taking lessons.
violin, flute, french.
these few ba.
the strings really inspiried me last night.
i went for bigone's Sinfonia 2006.
not too bad. just a lil, overwhelmed.
it was held in their school auditorium.
so i guess many of their students went.
i mean, its basic courtesy to remain silent and everything.
the people beside me kept talking and laughing so loudly.
came in untidy clothing.
so what if its held in their school.
its basic concert ettiquette.
you're almost 20, there's no excuse for not knowing.

never mind about them.
shant be too bothered about it.
jac's finally 21 today.
happy for her too. her tears were of joy.
i sensed it.

its not i dint miss you.
i did too much till i dint even dare go near.

was thinking about this.
i guess this is for you.

so much for that little love i have.

2006-11-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

ohwow. time flies.
this is the last week end to the O'lvl.

what can i say.
have been slacking. lols
i want to go out and study.
but i guess, its best to stay at home.
yupp. ((:

it was a "night-out" with stiie.
at the pasar malam.
we went crazy over some MONOKURO.
lol. this black and white pigs.
bought 2007 calendar.
bought stickers.
bought a pair of handphone chains.
bought drii a file. (:
and bought food back for my parents.

it was a great stress-reliever. yeah.
helped hazel with the packing of her camp stuffs.
she's so. er. EXCITED?

ohwells. today wasnt too bad.
just that i dint even complete one amaths paper.
LOLness. i cant help it.
SS seems more and more interesting,
as the day comes nearer for me to FORGET ALL ABOUT IT.

two more weeks. and i'm done with it.

tu me manques, mon amour.
tu me manques, mon amour.
tu me manques, mon amour.

2006-11-01T10:47:00.000+08:00

i'm so in the mood to blog nowadays.
smth i cant do these days is expressed in the picture.
that's why they say, a picture speaks a thousand words.

i'm really tempted to delete the previous post.
i think i really screwed today.
and its all my fault again.

mom should have heard about the 9/10 rule.
then maybe, she wouldnt have done what she did.
then i wouldnt be so ruined.

tu me manques
ne partez pas s'il vous plait

edited //.
its not i'm not independent.
she makes me feel safer.
studying can be lonely.
especially, when i'm just at home.
hope you understand, mom.

and to you:
disappointment sets in.
but dont give up the dream of yours.
you can do it.

vouloir c'est pouvoir

edited edited//.
i wish i could cry like a baby.
cry it all out.
fcuk.

2006-11-01T01:55:00.000+08:00

i couldnt fall asleep.
so i decided to on my com again.
suddenly felt like blogging.

chem prac was okay. (:
missed the lunch with girls.
but went on to shopping with mum.
saw many things.
but bought little. heh-

seriously dint do anything today.
all the best to those having papers tmr!
stiie stiie stiie! JIAYOUS-

tmr going yh's if not raining.
hope it doesnt rain then.
i have my reason for wanting the pool.
hope you understand.

Ne partez pas s'il vous plait
J'ai besoin de toi
Tu me manques
Ton ange a jamais

2006-10-31T00:15:00.000+08:00

i'm kinda lost.
my mind's drifting away.
chem prac tmr.
hope i dont screw up my titration.

ever since you disappointed me,
i decided not to risk the next disappointment.

j'aimerais que tu sois ici avec moi

2006-10-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

okay. i shant post in french.

mom seems okay with me not going 3mths.
i told her i'll take up a french course.
she said most prolly she get me a part-time job.
then she say, i have to go buy paint for the house.
yeah. she's so excited. -.-

i realise i really cannot concentrate well.
especially recently.
doing one maths paper a day only is,
definitely not enough to prepare me for o's.
i'm so gonna be ..... dead

anyway. tmr got grandad dinner.
i've got a schedule packed even before o's.
10th nov. concert.
11th nov. mom's office family day. jac's 21st birthday.
ohwells. but i'll sure be a free soul after o's.

spare me of the stress.
i cant take it.

j'aimerais que tu sois ici avec moi

2006-10-26T22:44:00.000+08:00

ne pas avoir de limites
c'est la vie

vouloir c'est pouvior

2006-10-24T00:26:00.000+08:00

back to update ((:
i've been blogging so often suddenly.
lol-ed. i must be crazy.

anyway. how was the french post?
it inspired me to take up french lessons.
(that's if i'm not going 3-mths)
and the meaningful story post too (:
i seriously like that story.
its so, what u call that, practical? maybe..
yeah. i'm waiting to play board games.

all thanks to hazel. LOL.
force me to play 'who's the richest?' with her.
all cos the first time i played with her,
i LOST. lol
then i think she thinks i will lose to her again.
LOL. she seems to be having fun. tskness.

anyway, today is a totally boring day.
i couldnt get myself to sit down at the table.
so i've been letting time fly past again.
ohwells.

yupp. please refer back to the previous posts,
if you haven been checking back. (:

take care peeps.

vouloir c'est pouvior.
and the same old line i never get sick of,

tu me manques. ((:

2006-10-23T15:07:00.000+08:00

Two angels stopped to spend the night in the home of a wealthy family. The family was rude and refused to let the angels stay in the mansion's guestroom. Instead the angels were given a small space in the cold basement. As they made their bed on the hard floor, the older angel saw a hole in the wall and repaired it. When the younger angel asked why, the older angel replied, "Things aren't always what they seem."

The next night the pair came to rest at the house of a very poor, but very hospitable farmer and his wife. After sharing what little food they had the couple let the angels sleep in their bed where they could have a good night's rest. When the sun came up the next morning the angels found the farmer and his wife in tears. Their only cow, whose milk had been their sole income, lay dead in the field.

The younger angel was infuriated and asked the older angel how could you have let this happen? The first man had everything, yet you helped him, she accused. The second family had little but was willing to share everything, and you let the cow die.

"Things aren't always what they seem," the older angel replied. "When we stayed in the basement of the mansion, I noticed there was gold stored in that hole in the wall. Since the owner was so obsessed with greed and unwilling to share his good fortune, I sealed the wall so he wouldn’t find it."

"Then last night as we slept in the farmers bed, the angel of death came for his wife. I gave him the cow instead. Things aren't always what they seem."

Sometimes that is exactly what happens when things don't turn out the way they should. If you have faith, you just need to trust that every outcome is always to your advantage. You might not know it until some time later.

meaningful story from an email.
hoped it sparked many minds with another perspective.

tu me manques

2006-10-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

j'ai tres mal a la tete
rester assis a ne rien faire

j'espere etre de quelque utilite
tu me manques

vouloir c'est pouvoir